As of 15th November 2021, my involvement with All My Thorns has reached its end.
This was a mutually agreed arrangement. I’m not a user of Facebook anymore but the band are and since there has been announcement, subsequent reaction and maybe speculation/discussion to follow in a public domain, I felt compelled to explain.
I first joined the band back in March. The remit was originally for us to get the band gig ready by September. The band had inherited a slot on the HRH Goth festival from its previous incarnation Sometime The Wolf, which had been dissolved a few months previous. HRH was a big gig and I had been a huge fan of the music of Sometime The Wolf so when they asked me to join, the idea appealed to me.
I was initially apprehensive at taking on more musical endeavours. I had two bands as it stood and had just left a third in order that I might free up some time. Thankfully, despite being Lancashire based, the rest of the band were very accommodating and agreed to rehearse in our existing rehearsal room in Bradford. This made things so much easier for me and I really did appreciate it. The outline of the set was already predefined. Half was to be old Sometime The Wolf material which I was over the moon about having the opportunity to play and half was a handful of ideas which were subsequently turned into more performable pieces. There was not much time to get this done. Apart from Drew and Korv, we hadn’t played together before so we had to get things in place quickly. There was no time to write anything new from scratch as well as do all this and so a workflow was established, backing tracks/clicks were created and everything was rehearsed to death. By hook or crook we got to where we needed to be. It wasn’t perfect but it worked. Our first appearance was in the August, followed by one at the beginning of September at Carpe Noctum Leeds, one week ahead of the HRH weekend. We worked out that by the time we had played the second leg of the HRH weekend in London, it had been just 5 months since we all stepped into a room together for the first time and we’d done 4 gigs in 3 counties. A very short, stressful and intense amount of time for what was essentially a fledgling (albeit seasoned) band. As might be expected, it hadn’t been without its turbulence but we weathered the storm.
The next part of the journey was to find out if we could continue and write some new things together whilst establishing a band dynamic which would suit all of us. Long story short, we could not. Creative people often clash. Sometimes it can be positive and fruitful and sometimes it can be unhealthy and it’s nobody’s fault. I think in our case it was more the latter and by the time the dark autumn weeks came along, my SAD had kicked off for the first time in a while and I was feeling burnt out. I was trying to do and think about too many things. Three bands is not an easy number to maintain, especially when one of them appears to be much more difficult than it needs to be. Making music shouldn’t be a battle. I was exhausted and disillusioned. I’m not pretending that I was the only affected party and I’m not pretending that I wasn’t partly to blame, the friction was taking its toll band wide.
There were differences of opinion regarding the best way forward musically for the band and after some decisive discussions, it was mutually agreed that we’d part ways.
To be honest, it’s a relief for me and I imagine it is for my erstewhile bandmates too to varying degrees. I’d long since had a feeling that All My Thorns wasn’t the right fit for me.
I felt my other projects had been neglected over the summer and it had started to become unfair on others, despite their understanding and support. In particular the next Dawn of Elysium album has not received nearly the amount of attention it deserves. There is still a lot of work to do. Creatively I can’t help but feel that conflicts of interest existed too, being in two bands which occupy similar spaces musically. This is especially true since Izak joined DOE and heavier influences have come into play.
So that’s it. An all too common and possibly quite boring story. “Musical differences” call it what you will. I have tried to keep it factual and there really is no blame. I still have a lot of affection and respect for the rest of the band and I hope that friendships endure after what has been a very distracting and trying couple of weeks. I am immensely proud of what we achieved throughout the little time I was with the band and despite our differences, there are some moments which I will cherish for the rest of my life.
All the very best to Drew, Korv and Mick and to whoever else joins them on the next part of their journey.
This is my stop, time to alight the vehicle.