A new outlook

As we emerge blinking into 2010, another year, another decade infact. I am sure various people have been thinking about fresh starts in many ways and to some extent I am no exception.

I have resolved to afford time for the things in life which are truly important to me and to strike a better balance. For too long now, I have been bogged down by the whole Bradford music scene thing and the politics contained within, so much so that I let it consume me to some extent. Both with the BMC and with organising things for the Mannville and later the Zuu Bar, I spent an unhealthy amount of time thinking about and performing tasks related to this, sometimes doing things when my attention should have been elsewhere, waking up in the middle of the night to switch the PC on and fire off messages / set up Facebook events, going straight on the PC when I got up and when I got in from work. Not just with the bookings but with the online disputes and flame wars and trying to gather news for the BMC newsfeed as well as look for new ways of getting the word about. I have been at times, a man obsessed. I think it had affected my mental health a bit and has strained some friendships at times. It was reminiscent of when I was at the height of my degree commitments, except then I had a real workload to get through and a definite end goal to reach.

All the while, the rest of my life was not being given the attention it deserved and to some extent I was losing the plot. This last couple of weeks has been great as I have had the opportunity to spend some real quality time at home and in some ways it feels like I had been away somewhere.

I have been and still will spend quite a bit of time online but I have been using my own personal accounts more again recently rather than BMC ones (Blog/Twitter/MySpace) and have been trying to vary the kind of information I read as well as learn new things a bit. I do like social networking but am tending more towards the evolving Twitter culture rather than the (often banal) Facebook culture, which is getting more ridiculous by the week. Don’t get me wrong it is nice to keep in touch with friends but quite a few people are finding new and more ludicrous ways to waste time and bandwidth these days!

I have still been out and about over the festive period. I will always be a social animal and love going out with friends and listening to / watching cool music – this has been the whole driving force behind my music scene activities, However, until very recently my whole “going out” experience had an agenda behind it. I was switched on, networking, exchanging ideas and making sure other people where having a good time rather than simply enjoying myself. I was constantly arranging everything else around gigs at the Mannville / Zuu bar, sometimes speculatively and I consequently missed out on some cool events because of that. I also found myself going out more often and drinking more regularly. It was nice over xmas to go down to Idle village with some friends and just be out enjoying ourselves with a change of scenery. I need to do more of this socially and I shall do, whilst balancing it with a healthy amount of home life too.

Then there is the band. I have been enjoying this immensely. In the past a band has been a means of escape from the rest of life’s pressures but on this occasion, it has been intrinsically linked to them. We did have to put it on hold in October, again due to the venue(s) and both Mick and I were probably physically and emotionally tied up elsewhere whilst that happened. Thankfully (I think) we are now up and running again but it feels like a bit of a struggle sometimes. The music is great though and as long as we keep ticking over it should be fine. We are set to return to the rehearsal room on the 14th January, the day before our first anniversary (started our first rehearsal 15/01/09). I am personally looking forward to recording (allegedly in February).

There have also been brief talks about a brand new musical project which I may be involved in, which will likely be a more casual affair but I don’t want to jinx it by saying anything about it just yet. More on this as it unfolds. SBC will remain unaffected anyway.

So what future for the whole venue / bookings / BMC activities? Well, don’t get me wrong I will not be stopping doing any of this by a long chalk. After all, it does need doing and I do enjoy it. However, I will be re-addressing it with a healthier outlook and not be obsessing over it like I was.

I simply realised that I don’t have to turn up to every single gig that I have booked every week or spend my time agonising over things that don’t matter too much in the grand scheme of things. Yes I care deeply about music in my city, I will never let Mick and co. down and I will try and keep up the efforts to the best of my abilities. However, I realise that I don’t have to make it my sole purpose in life and I also realise that no-one has ever really had that expectation of me, other than myself.

So, apologies if I don’t get back to you quite as quickly as I have in the past or if it takes me a little longer than before to get things done or even if I do not get to every gig I have booked for you. I am still here and I still care very much! You could say that I have rediscovered “me” and the bigger picture of my life to some degree. I feel much more at peace and it has been a long time coming. More of everything else please!

Stuff and nonsense

Nothing much to report. It has been another variable early summer Monday morning, the weather has been a bit grim over the last couple of days. I hope it brightens up for the weekend.

I had a productive day yesterday and sorted a few things out at home. Still quite a few things to do but I already feel better about addressing some of the backlog anyway. My TV has annoyingly failed for the second time since I bought it at Christmas with the same fault. The guy from PC World is coming round to sort it on Friday. I hope it is a direct swap. All 3 HDMI ports died one by one in the space of just over a week. All I had plugged into them was my PC. Consequently, we can’t watch our recorded programmes until the weekend. Last night, we resorted to switching the Sky box on! I am looking forward to ditching the subscription to be honest and getting hold of a decent FreeSat machine.

It would seem that quite a few people feel quite passionately about the (mis)management of The Exchange Alehouse in Bradford. So much so, that a Facebook group has been set up in protest. There are 65 members in less than a week at the time of writing, which is pretty significant. Whether anything happens off the back of it remains to be seen but it has been made clear that the person in question is not very popular and has significantly reduced the customer base in the place due to bad attitude and bad management. In my opinion, it would be unwise at best for the leaseholder not to at least monitor the situation.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=88126155722&ref=ts

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A new day

Well, as predicted, Stan’s funeral did act as the metaphoric full stop to the chaotic last few months described in my earlier post. It is weird, it feels like a huge Doctor Who adventure has just finished and I have just arrived in the TARDIS somewhere totally new.

As funerals go, it was a very mixed affair. The opening piece of music was Get Rhythm by Johnny Cash, which was very apt for Stan. The main body of the service was fairly religion heavy with various biblical readings, prayers and a hymn which I am sure provided comfort for some, including Stan’s older sister. As far as I knew, Stan wasn’t a particularly religious man but I guess people of a certain generation like to do things in a particular way. It was nice to hear a summary of his life and was very moving (if a little strange) to hear his daughter Astrid and nephew Paul read the lyrics to Dance On (a song I wrote for Stan in his final days) out loud. The final song of the service was Stan’s own eponymous song, played from the Wild Trash CD. After the service, it was off to the Jacob’s Well, which was one of Stan’s favourite pubs. They have got some nice beer on and they also put a good spread on for everybody. A lot of us carried on drinking perhaps a bit later than we were originally planning, moving up to the Mannville for the evening session. I am sure I was not alone in feeling pretty rough yesterday! It was nice to pay our final respects and it is a nice feeling to not have to worry about not only a good friend suffering but also the organising of various things in parallel.

We return to the rehearsal room tomorrow night with SBC and I guess it is a case of running through everything, picking up the pieces and working on new stuff too. We also need to decide when our next gig is and when we are going to record. We have been asked if we want to play at the MS Matters benefit gig at The Mannville on the 24th of this month, so that needs to be discussed. Personally speaking, I wasn’t planning on us being involved after just finishing playing at two all-dayers recently. It would be nice to be able to relax a bit this time and just enjoy the day, rather than having to worry about stuff. Also, it would be nice to play a gig of our own (or at least a grab decent support slot) at another venue for our next appearance. Still, it has not been discussed yet so anything could happen.

I am planning on spending some proper time doing Mannville business soon, to run through the backlog of band requests. We have quite a backlog and I haven’t had the time recently to go through and give them all a listen. We are still heavily booked up until September I think but late summer needs some attention.

At the moment, I am chilling a bit and I feel more relaxed than I have done for quite a long time. Just the job!

Reunions and renaissance

It seems that round these parts, reunions have been big business recently, as in pub/club/venue reunions. I personally enjoy these nights as you come across a few people you haven’t seen for years and you also come across a lot of people whom you see on a regular basis. Bradford used to be legendary and there are at least 3 generations of people that I can think of who spent their formative years in the many colourful rock and alternative orientated places that Bradford has had to offer over the years.

It is nice to hold a candle to the past and relive your memories for just for one night and as a casual observer, it is nice to see the younger generation developing their own future memories. I often spend time with people aged 18-25, who don’t really have many memories of the places which have fallen by the wayside over the years and it is really refreshing to not hear jaded comments about “how it is not as good as it used to be” – something that was all too commonplace even a couple of years ago. Something which also warms my heart is the fact that a lot of old faces are now coming round to the idea that the Bradford music scene is on the up. I have always been of the firm belief that although it changed and decreased in size, it has never died and if people could just get past the past (so to speak) and perhaps get out of the habit of using previous pinnacles as reference points, then it would not be beyond the realms of possibility to rebuild. Thankfully, that is now happening.

Obviously my point of view is mainly coming from The Mannville corner due to what I have been doing since last August. We are perpetually inundated with requests for gigs from bands from all over the UK and beyond. The Polish Club is on the up too, with more and more people utilising the venue room there. Leon Punkined has done an amazing job so far with bands coming from all over the UK. His Room At The Top punk nights have been the flagship event for the venue and have inspired other people to put their own nights on of various styles. I don’t think they have had a bad night so far and word is spreading quickly. The recent Gasworks relocation has excited quite a few folks and with the possibilities of hosting bigger touring bands in the area, the West End of the city is set to reach new heights. The mainstream clubs have been dipping their toes into the water and hosting alternative based club nights (albeit through the week mainly). It has been good to hear that Delius has continued since Deano left last year and although I have seldom been up there in recent times, I fully support what they are doing. The Beehive also continues to host a plethora of independant events, which have been very popular.

The people from Rio’s have been watching this regeneration happen with a keen eye. They recently did a short test run of 4 Wednesday night Exit 1 nights at Lingards and it has been rumoured that they are looking to do something more substantial in the area. There are a couple of other interesting ideas floating about too which would be cool to see unfold. I guess it is a case of watch this space.

Some people have stated that they are concerned about the city being over-saturated with venues with not enough people to go round and although there is some truth in that, I still think that there are scores of people sat in local pubs around West Yorkshire with limited knowledge of what is occuring in the city centre or people who simply don’t feel as though they have much to come out for. Also, a better, bigger scene will not only attract more national and international bands and the fans that they bring along but also give people more of a reason to travel. Give people something to come out for and they will.

So, next time you are contemplating the reunion of some bar which closed down many years ago or flicking through the various Facebook pages with old photos. Why not think about what we have got on our doorstep and that you are never too old to enjoy the zeitgeist and form new memories?

See you at the next gig!

Crazy little thing called life

It has been a while since my last blog (previously on MySpace) and after such an eventful few months, it seems a perfect time to sit back, take stock and reflect on things. Some of this is covered in other blog posts elsewhere.

At the back end of last year, I was approached by Paul Gooding, one of my oldest friends about at an all-dayer that he wanted to put on. It involved putting on 7 or 8 bands, including reforming an old band of ours called Dawnraiser for a one-off performance. The date was in aid of the BRI neo-natal clinic / post birth care unit after they did such a good job with his own son Cameron. Anyway, we picked our line-up for the band and early this year, we set about rehearsing for the gig which was to take place on Easter Sunday – 12th April, 2009 – our first in 12 years. The date was booked and billed as “Moshing 4 Medicine”. Venue – The Mannville Arms.

Because of various commitments, the rehearsals were few and far between and at times “interesting” because this particular line-up had not played together before. Paul, Ian and myself had played in (what we’d call) the “classic” 1996 line-up of the band, Dave had sung for the very first line-up back in ’93 and Stevie who jumped in on drums had not played for Dawnraiser before. There were various reasons that this line-up had been settled on. We had pretty much all either been friends for years or played with each other in different bands at different times so we were none of us strangers to each other. It was a good trip down memory lane playing some of that old material again after such a long time. I don’t really get off on playing metal all that much anymore but for a one-off, it was fun. However, I can’t see a repeat performance happening any time soon.

The day went down well with a lot of old faces there from way back when as well as some newer ones. Paul and Dave played a slot with their new project “Suckerpunch” – a kind of stripped down version of their band “Old School Enemy”. Stevie and I played the debut performance for our new band “Suicide by Cop”. Then there were also sets from Wild Trash, State Of Error, Open Fire, Dawnraiser and Brand New Analogues. It was an action packed bill with something for everybody spread over a good 5 or 6 hours. The event raised £266 for the cause, which considering it was free entry (as are all the events at The Mannville Arms) was very good indeed. It was the first time Paul had organised anything like this and he did a great job.

In February, I received some very sad news about a very dear friend of mine, who was a local legend on the Bradford scene. His name was William Stanley Simpson, known to pretty much everybody as Stan and he went 74 years old last September. Stan used to turn up to loads of gigs and dance like crazy to bands of all types. He would out-party people a third of his age on many an occasion. Anyway, Stan unfortunately got diagnosed with cancer in February and after an initial spell in St. Luke’s Hospital, he was transferred to charity-funded Manorlands Hospice, where he was well looked after by the nurses there. He was eventually transferred to a privately funded nursing home, closer to where his family lived but Manorlands looked after Stan when he was at his lowest ebb, when he was coming to terms with his illness and at his most disorientated. Manorlands have a special place in my heart because they looked after my grandfather in his final days and they were brilliant with my family when the time finally came. So, the idea for Stanfest came about, which was an opportunity to raise some much needed money for a very worthy charity as well as celebrate the life of a local legend. I spoke to Stan about the idea and he was thrilled about it. I sat down with him and discussed which bands I had in mind because I wanted to book all of the ones which he liked best from over the years. We decided on a list and I set about asking people and I was overwhelmed by the sheer amount of support I received. People banded together to help in whatever way they could, bands reformed after not having played together for a long time, the word spread like wild-fire in very little time at all. I could tell that the idea was turning out to be popular. The day was booked for Sunday 3rd May – another bank holiday.

Stan was still very much with us when a lot of the planning was going on and he even had the posters up in his room at the home. As his body started to get weaker, each time we visited, he kept apologising for probably not being able to make it to the “Fest” (as he called it) for long, if at all. By a strange and profoundly poignant co-incidence, he sadly passed away on the morning of the day of the “Fest” – something none of us were expecting, especially since the date had been booked over 8 weeks previous.

The day was a roaring success – a legendary day for a legendary man. We booked ourselves down again (Suicide by Cop) for the opening slot, Vaira reformed as a three piece especially for the occasion (they had not played with this line-up for quite some time). Wild Trash finished off the first half of the day and I got up and performed Stan’s eponymous song with them as their closing number. After an hour’s interval to give people a chance to relax, have a drink, go for some food etc. Conquest Of Steel took to the stage. They were one of Stan’s fave bands back in the Empress days. It was their first time in the Mannville and actually their first time back in Bradford for quite some time. Next up were The Negatives – a band whose gigs Stan always turned up to if they were playing locally. Let ‘Em Burn were up next. They were supposed to be headlining but had to swap because the guitarist John’s wife had just gone into labour with their twin boys. Much respect to John for still playing the set and we would have understood if he had pulled the gig. Finally, was a band that Stan requested personally and one who had not played together for 2 and a half years – Nirvana tribute band Cobain. They treated us to an hour’s set. The fest in total was about 10 hours long, with Nigel Hunter compering the entire event and various people doing spots of DJing in-between the acts. The Polish Club around the corner served as a second venue for the day with a more relaxed atmosphere, which was very welcome at times when we needed to get away from the chaos of The Mannville. DJ Big Pete Evans played for a good few hours there. We managed to raise a staggering £607 through the donation bucket and that is before we count up the totals in the collection boxes, which are still scattered along the bars of both venues at the time of writing. A worthy mention has to go to The Exchange pub bar-staff, who had a whip-round and made a generous contribution. You may have read elsewhere the issues that I have personally had with the manager of the place in the build-up to Stanfest, which I will not dwell on but suffice to say that not all people who work down there should be tarred with the same brush so to speak. It was very much a day of togetherness and all petty differences were quite rightly cast aside by all.


So, between the Dawnraiser reunion and Moshing 4 Medicine, Stan, Stanfest, general Mannville events management, organising a Battle of the Bands competition, getting the new band together and having a bit of a stressful time at work (day job) to boot, the first half of 2009 was a crazy time and Stanfest was kind of the natural ending to all of that. I found myself just crashing and burning on the two days following feeling tired, emotional, shell-shocked and also relieved. Stan’s funeral, which is planned for this coming Monday, will be kind of the full stop to it all. After the chaos of Stanfest, I imagine it will be a much more solemn occasion as we pay our final respects.

Countless numbers of people have suggested that Stanfest becomes an annual event. The jury is kind of still out on that one for me. I was only planning on doing that one special day and wouldn’t want to dilute the experience by trying to repeat it. That said, it was a poignant day due to his passing that very morning and I know everybody would want to keep Stan’s memory alive. He was an inspiration to us all. Also, any event which raises money for a well worthy charity is worth doing as many times as possible. Whatever happens, I am not going to actively think about it yet as the last one has only just finished and people are still coming down from the first one.