Riding the cloud again

I have always been an over-thinker and over-worrier. I don’t know the root cause of it but it drives me insane at times, especially during the darkest days of the year. I guess some aspects of my childhood were not straightforward, particularly in my school days. I always think people think the worst of me or are mocking me (even some people whom I consider friends). Common-sense suggests that they are not but it’s difficult to focus on that when your head is in a dark cloud.

It’s a self perpetuating exercise to seek reassurance because I believe that comes across as needy, which is seen to be a socially negative trait and so the anxiety continues. Most of the time, it seems to make the most sense to simply say nothing. Although in contradiction to that, some might see me as emotionally expressive anyway. Believe me, there is a lot which I keep to myself.

I suppose being creative exacerbates this, where often work goes ignored or uncommented on. That’s just the way it is, the nature of the beast. Although music is something which should be a personal expression done for ones self, feedback, be it positive or negative is not only reassuring but very useful. You know where you stand to some degree. Absence of feedback, especially from those who’s opinions you value the most contributes to the crushing self-doubt, which most musicians or artists will recognise. It’s not that one seeks approval so much as seeks a frame of reference from which to move forward. Silence and indifference are so much more a cause of anxiety than anything negative and because I consider music to be an extension of the self, it feels to me like being physically ignored at times. It’s never been about recognition or popularity, it’s more about connection or lack of.

As I said though, superficially it’s the nature of the beast when being part of something musical and will always be thus. I just keep on keeping on, doing what I believe in and for those kind enough to take the time to connect, I am truly appreciative. As for these low ebbs, I just sit tight and ride the cloud.

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10 years on – the more things change, the more things stay the same

Ten years ago, I once again started frequenting an old haunt of mine called The Mannville Arms. It was called The Head at the time and had been subjected to a great many changes since The Mannville of old had closed in 1995. Located just across the road from Bradford College, it was very much a student pub with a student vibe. It hadn’t hosted anything particularly noteworthy until my friend Tom started there, apart from some DJ nights with Steve, the manager at the time. There was a general feeling that a change was going to come. Mick Dunn was working the bar and he decided, in conjunction with his brother Billy to buy the lease on the place with a view to restoring the pub’s name and vibe. Tom booked the bands and I jumped onboard as a DJ, primarily doing monthly nights but also the odd additional session. I’d been a DJ since 1996 at the Smithy and Empress pubs.

The more I used the place, the more I got involved. It was very infectious. It had always been my favourite pub of old and it was amazing to see the resurrection unfold. I eventually became ents officer for the place, overseeing the entire roster after Tom left and loads of people got involved in the burgeoning scene. At one point, there was some form of entertainment on every single night of the week, be it live music or DJs and punters flooded in.

It was awesome. There was also a real sense of renaissance in the Bradford music scene at large as more and more places turned their attention more to live music and DJ nights. We tried to establish a collective called the BMC (Bradford Music Collective) to attempt to collaborate and cross promote. This worked to varying degrees and most folks were very helpful towards each other. However, despite pleasantries, there was often an ever so slight underlying air of territorialism as quite understandably, everyone wanted to make sure they had their fair share of punters. There were only so many people to go around after all and bills had to be paid. It’s this territorialism which has plagued Bradford over the years, sometimes more than others, which any landlord or manager of one of the city’s venues, past or present will testify. It can be a tough and at times political game.

It gave me many a sleepless night and caused a number of mini-breakdowns as well as self-doubt and doubt in the trust of others. Friendships were tested as I got too close to what I was doing and I became defensive in the face of criticism. Tensions were high.

After the closure of the Mannville in November 2009, over the course of the next 7 or so years, I was to be involved in other venues, each time running myself ragged. I stepped down from regular involvement in 2014 and organised my final event at the beginning of 2016. By this time, the landscape had changed considerably. Old places had closed, making way for new places and new faces. Things seemed on the surface to be very convivial.

After 20 years of being involved in Bradford music scene events in some capacity, I did my last DJ gig on the New Year’s Eve of 2016. My lifestyle was changing. I was ready for the next phase of my life which involved moving away from the city centre and settling down a bit. I’ve still had my bands and I will always be involved in creating and playing music but the events game is not for me anymore.

So far in 2017, I have relocated home twice and my trips into town have been sparse. However, I have kept in touch with people and keep my ear to the ground as much as I can. I sense that between some parties, the politics is still ever present and with it the ill-feeling, mistrust and territorialism which have for years plagued Bradford. I have no reason to not remain neutral and I do hope that differences can be rectified for the sake of the customers above all else. When I was in the thick of it, we were stuck in the middle of a major conflict between venues. It was all very uncomfortable. The punters voted with their feet, ultimately away from the city centre and everybody lost out. The people who learned from that lesson are all now out of business or have moved away and it took a while for things to improve again. It would be a real shame to see things deteriorate again. The traits I recognise from myself of that era, I have noticed in others in more recent times. For those still involved, I would urge you to take a step back from it once in a while, settle your differences, try and cultivate a culture of support and trust and above all else, be positive. People really dig that!

A hunger still unsatisfied

Last Friday, I came to the decision that I would like to start a brand new band to commence in earnest in the new year. I have come to the realisation that there is something missing for me in the musical things that I do and life is passing me by at an increasing rate. I want to be more active in a band and have more fun.

That is not to say that I am not happy with Dawn of Elysium by any stretch.

I love what we do and what we do is good in my opinion. However, in order to get the material to where it needs to be is not the easiest of things. It can be laborious to create, especially with the absence of a drummer and I also struggle to write the lyrics a lot of the time. Then I feel restricted in my guitar playing because I am also singing lead vocal.

When the material is ready to gig, opportunities for the more appropriate gigs seem to be limited, which I can maybe attribute to the nature of the size of the goth scene versus the number of bands that promoters have to accommodate. Despite some very encouraging and very appreciative audiences, progress is positive but comparatively glacial in pace.

We have tried additional (non-goth) gigs where possible and on the occasion where we can get the bookings, there simply doesn’t seem to be the audience. Perhaps people are simply not taking to it, perhaps it can be attributed to not enough promotion. In reality, it’s probably a bit of both. Although there have been those who have really enjoyed it, I have heard the phrase “I think you are great at what you do but it’s not really my cup of tea” a number of times. I’ve given CDs to people to listen to hoping for some feedback only to be met with silence. It simply is what it is and unless I am really missing something, it can never be anything else.

It has a whole lot yet to offer creatively and I will continue with it enthusiastically. It’s five and a half years since we started up and despite my sounding a bit negative, I am loving it more than ever and not about to let it go any time soon. I still believe in what we do, despite feeling a little disheartened at times. There’s no objective right or wrong when it comes to creating music, only what you believe is right for yourself and Dawn of Elysium is certainly right for me within the confines of itself.

However, what I really miss is jamming and creating music organically with a like-minded bunch of people, including live drums. Being able to relax behind my guitar and have some real fun.

Reflecting back on what I have done over the years. I think the last time I was truly happy in this type of situation was pre-2013 Suicide By Cop and the Wild Trash days. Grafting the rehearsals, getting out and playing gigs and perhaps having a bit of a decent following in my home town as well as playing a little further afield (something I have always, always wanted to do more of).

Anyway, 2013 onwards saw SBC grind to a halt. We attempted to reinvent and reboot the band with Echofire and despite us writing some great material, it never regained its mojo and lost momentum to the point where I felt unable to continue with it as it stood. This was remedied for them by getting a new line-up together and continuing with a fresh resolve, the results of which have been fantastic.

As an antidote for me, I set about getting a new band together, which became Man Down. Despite the odd flash of the old spirit returning in the latter half of 2016, it also ultimately suffered from lack of momentum which coupled with a bout of ill health led me to bow out of that project too. On reflection, I maybe threw myself into that too soon. It certainly wasn’t a waste of time for me because I had some great times with some great friends and it did let off some steam. Musically it lost its way in the new year of 2017 for me and that coupled with all the personal challenges that this year has presented me with led me to realise it wasn’t for me at the time. The by-product of it however is that there is still a band of sorts in existence with a new line-up so it hasn’t been a waste at all. I have not heard much of their progress but it all seems very encouraging.

So that brings me to here, the latter half of 2017 with many of the recent personal challenges out of the way and space to think properly.

Have I been fickle? I don’t think I have. In the last 8 years since 2009, I have left two bands, the former of which I stuck with for 6 and a half of them. Much has changed but much has stayed the same. I still have that hunger, that need to create and bounce off other band members. I have done some bits and pieces with friends in a home studio situation but I got stalled with that too. I need to get into the rehearsal room, make some noise, rock out, get sweaty and get excited then get out and play my bollocks off on stage.

To that end, I have put feelers out and am in communications with a number of people. There is a singer/lyricist who is itching to get going with something and a keyboardist whom I have been talking with for months about doing something. It sounds very encouraging. We have yet to get together and talk properly but I think the sound we produce might be of an alternative/indie/rock/punk vibe, judging by common influences. We will need a like-minded drummer and bassist to get things going properly and as such we’ll be actively looking and I will put a more concise advert together.

2017 so far – restless frustration

We’re halfway through the year so I figured a round up of 2017 so far was appropriate.

It’s been a year of changes and frustration in the main, a very different animal from 2016.

From the get go, we had decided to terminate our tenancy at our old place and relocate. It was time for us to move on. We had been in our city centre apartment for a number of years. It had served its purpose and we had a lot of happy memories there but we wanted somewhere we could have a quieter life with a garden. City living has its advantages but it’s not a place to settle down and as time went on, its shortcomings and limitations became all the more evident.

Moving home was a big upheaval. It’s not something I have done very much in my life and it’s not something I want to do many more times to be honest. Finding somewhere was stressful due to the market being very active. It seemed as soon as places came up, they were taken almost immediately. So January was taken up with finding somewhere and after we found somewhere, February was taken up with sorting and moving.

We were in our new home by mid-February, situated close to the village of Idle, which is where much of my family are from and where I spent most of my young life growing up. I noticed a very swift improvement to our quality of life. Less air pollution, less light pollution at night, generally fairly quiet and a real sense of community. My social life started to change and I stopped venturing into the city centre as much and started spending time with friends and family closer to what I now called home.

In the early part of the spring I experienced some health problems which rendered me immobile for a few weeks. My knees were causing me great pain and so I was unable to go about my day to day life. It gave me some time to reflect on a few things and in April, I came to the decision that Man Down was no longer working for me. We’d had significant line-up issues and not much rehearsal time and the more time I spent away from it, the less I felt like returning to it. It was no reflection on anybody else, It’s just that being in two bands was not something I felt able to continue with at the time and if I’m honest, the music wasn’t quite what I wanted to do. I wasn’t giving myself the mental space to think and concentrate on anything creative properly.

Dawn of Elysium rehearsal time was also fairly limited for a number of reasons. However, we started on some new material and have now got 5 definite pieces to contribute to our next album. We released the single track “Drown” at the end of April to co-incide with a couple of gigs we had booked. We have not done much since due to equipment problems and external commitments. However, we have plenty to be getting on with and hope to commence the writing process in earnest in the very near future. This year is especially gig-light for us, which is a welcome thing at the moment.

May has seen a number of further complications as far as our home is concerned. Without going into details, it has resulted in us needing to once again find somewhere to live. This is very much a work in progress. One that we don’t need at this time but one which is necessary. It has been a tough period to say the least.

With all of this going on, I haven’t felt able to settle or feel inspired to use my home studio very much with knowledge of the imminent further upheaval. I had not finished unpacking and arranging it properly as it stood and presently see no point before it all has to be packed and moved again. I have been doing some bits of studio work elsewhere with a couple of friends, though not much has come of it as yet. With a bit of luck and a fair wind, everything should be resolved in a few weeks and I’ll be up and running with my relocated and properly arranged studio. There is certainly plenty on my to-do list and I hope to be in a position by late summer to begin formulating plans properly.

I’m not exactly sure where my musical journey is going to take me next. Dawn of Elysium has certainly got plenty left in it and I can see it continuing for some time to come. There are a number of pieces of unfinished business to attend to regarding projects past but this will be casual and studio based. There’s a certain part of me that wants something but I’m not exactly sure what that something is at the moment. This is the thing that keeps me keeping on, despite me not appearing to be very active.

My stand down from Man Down

2017 has proven to be a challenging year for me so far with personal circumstances and commitments taking centre stage. Consequently, band activities have been thin on the ground. After a recent episode of ill health which rendered me immobile, I had chance to reflect, take stock and think about what I’d like to pursue and where I need to concentrate my energies. I came to the decision that being a full time member of two bands was no longer working for me.

Even when there is lack of activity, being mentally committed to too much full time can be draining and the pressures we impose on ourselves in wanting and planning to improve things take their toll. For 5 years I have been in two bands at any given time which have nominally had weekly rehearsal schedules and I guess in that time it has slowly evolved from wanting to explore different sounds to doing it for the sake of it and I have found myself a little burned out.

It’s no reflection on anybody, I have really enjoyed what we have done with Man Down but being honest with myself, it wasn’t ultimately what I wanted to do musically. This was exacerbated by the fact that I was open to ideas so kept trying to make it fit but it was somehow not quite gelling and it was difficult to focus. That said, I am very proud of what we achieved with the Christmas single and some of the original songs we wrote sounded great. It’s just a shame they were never properly committed to tape. Mikey and Lyndon are talented guys and it’s been fantastic to work with them. I wish them both the very best in their continued endeavours.

The drummers we played with – Warren, Rick and Kallum are also top players and it’s been great to have the opportunity to play with each of them.

It has been a fun journey if frustrating at times and I have been glad of the experience.

For the foreseeable future, there are a few things I’d like to do but I intend on primarily concentrating my efforts on Dawn of Elysium and perhaps tinker with some casual studio based projects. With my recent moving house, I have a much improved home studio setup and I’m keen to use it more.

Whatever happens, I need to mentally regroup before I make any more plans. I think it is important to try and keep a clear head-space and not spread myself too thin.

2016 – Marching time and changing tides

After a number of years of keeping this blog and especially writing my annual reviews, it has become apparent that each year has its own character.

Every year has its ups and downs, its endings and beginnings. 2016 has seen the closing of a few fairly long term chapters for me and some new beginnings too. A lot of this was covered in previous entries in more detail so please excuse me for repeating myself a bit. It’s not in chronological order.

Dawn of Elysium has seen a great year of progress, playing 13 gigs in total, making lots of new friends and most importantly finally completing and releasing the full length debut album Time and Tide. The album was almost two years in the making. Despite the majority of the music having been written, we recorded it ourselves. We started from scratch in many ways, buying the equipment and learning to use the software as we went. My friend Martin Hawthorn was along for the ride, doing an outstanding job of the producing and mixing, giving the songs a new dimension in many cases.

It was a proud moment for me when it had been completed and we had CDs in our hands. A huge personal milestone indeed. I have been involved in bands for many years and had always wanted to do albums but aside from anthology type albums from Dawnraiser and Suicide By Cop which were made up from collections of EPs and extra tracks, none of the projects ever reached the point of doing a full length album. Up until this point, it would have been a relatively expensive goal to use a professional studio to record so much material in one go as I simply did not have the equipment to achieve it. A few of my friends had done so in their past and present projects and I had always been in admiration of their being in a position to. It takes the full band to be 100% committed, wilfully and financially to achieve it and it’s not always possible for everyone to be so focused. Since finishing the album and becoming more familiar with the hardware and software, we have commenced a number of recordings which will form the basis for our next releases. We’re looking forward to a period of further writing and recording in the new year, the latter of which will probably come a whole lot easier.

In May, I took the decision of leaving Echofire. After a prolonged period of no momentum and a few internal issues, I had simply had enough. We gave it a good run but unfortunately it never got off the ground as it stood. There are some recordings for a planned EP which I did quite a bit of work on in the first half of the year but we never got round to finishing them properly. Perhaps one day they will see the light of day but for now they are parked. My leaving was ultimately the best thing for all concerned looking back. Echofire continued and after a few line-up changes, found a new enthusiasm. They will hopefully be ready to do something next year. They remain some of my best friends and seeing them socially recently and looking so happy about the band has made me smile. Fortune did not favour Echofire for many reasons until I left and they really deserve a break. I sincerely hope 2017 will be their year.

After my departure from Echofire, I formed a new band with my friends Mikey May and Lyndon Birchall and we decided on the name Man Down. It has not been without its teething problems but we managed to get a bunch of songs together and play our first gig in December. We really enjoyed it and it seemed to be well received. We’re planning to spend some time adding to and refining our material in the new year with a view to getting out playing towards the spring time. In and amongst all this, we also wrote, recorded and released a Christmas song. The song is called “Man Down The Chimney” and is in aid of CALM. More information about it can be read here.

In August, there was a brief, exciting and strange episode where a number of planets aligned and I was taken down a path of deep nostalgia. I had met up with some old friends with whom I was in a band called Dark Embrace many moons ago. The topic of a potential reunion was discussed and put to the wider band membership but it was not clear exactly what shape the potential reunion would take. I wrote about this in this blog entry. Shortly after, the embryonic talks broke down and the idea floated off as suddenly as it had appeared. Not everyone was up for it and those who were each had slightly different ideas about what they wanted from it. My conclusion was that too much time had elapsed and we had all changed so much in the intervening 20 or so years. There were certain aspects of the situation which I did not personally want to revisit which I won’t elaborate on and although it was wonderful to catch up with some old and still very dear friends with whom I would very much like to maintain contact, I was relieved when it became apparent that the project wasn’t to be. Who knows, something may come out of it in the future but evidently not at the moment.

For many years, in addition to my band activities I have been involved to varying degrees in events and DJing. The former had all but finished in the last few years and in February, I organised my last event. It was called “Somebody Else’s Problem” and was in aid of PAFRAS. More information can be found here. It is of course a very worthy cause and the night itself went well but it wasn’t without its headaches. As anyone who has organised an event will tell you, it takes a fair bit of mental energy to keep things together for this type of thing and I would rather focus my energies onto my musical projects. Of course I am more than happy to play as part of charity events as I have done for years and I will pitch in where needed but my days of putting events together are at an end.

With regards to DJing, I have had some enjoyable DJ gigs at The Black Swan over the last year or two, playing alongside Matt Kula as part of the Trap Door pre-party for some months. I have been asked to do New Year’s Eve of this year and I decided that I would like to make it my last one. I have been a pub rock/alt DJ since 1996 and 20 years seemed like a nice cut-off point. I don’t have the enjoyment that I used to for it. I have sacrificed a fair few weekend nights to it but also have had to cancel a few due to gigs with my band, which is not really fair on the venue. I intend to enjoy this last one as much as possible and I am really looking forward to it. I guess it’s just a case of changed priorities ahead.

Special mention needs to be extended to the passing of our friend and colleague on the Bradford scene Harry “Scouse” Roberts. He really was a stalwart and worked many a music venue, mixing the sound and being a general nuisance. He was many things to many people but to many of us a very caring friend and he shall be missed. I wrote this eulogy about him when he passed on in April. In true Bradford tradition, we got together and had a big shindig in his honour with a few bands and we were positive he was with us in spirit.

It has been very much a year of changing tides as the old makes way for the new and it’s fitting really that the DOE album title wraps this up so well. It’s almost like fate has somehow coordinated things. Not to mention the plethora of significant celebrity deaths 2016 has brought us. I definitely feel like 2017 will be a year of new beginnings in many ways. In my personal life, I am planning to move home and also get married to my beloved Emma and we’re looking forward to all the new adventures it brings.

My initial plan for January is to have a period of abstinence from the drink and quit the smoking (which I have cut down on a lot in recent years). I am also planning to go “off grid” for a bit, particularly from Facebook which I will be deactivating for a while. It’s just a time to catch up with myself for a bit and to concentrate on what’s important.

Until then, I plan to enjoy the festive period. I hope everyone has a fantastic Christmas and a prosperous New Year.

2016 – home stretch

As we enter the final couple of months of the year, I look forward to the last three events I’m involved in for 2016. It’s a mixture of firsts and last.

On 26th November, Dawn of Elysium is playing its final gig of the year. It’s as part of Goth City Festival. We’re on at the main event at Wharf Chambers, Leeds and will be onstage at around 7.30. It will be our 13th gig of the year and our last one in the calendar as it stands. We’re taking some time out certainly in the early part of 2017 to write and record some brand new material following our debut album release in October of this year.

On 10th December, my new rock band Man Down plays its debut gig at the Black Swan in Bradford. We started at the back end of May of this year and have been spending time putting our first batch of songs together. We are all looking forward to making our first noises to the world. To coincide with this, we’re releasing our charity Christmas single. More details of this can be read here. There are further writing and recording plans to commence in the new year.

On New Year’s Eve, I am spinning the tunes at the Black Swan as I do my final DJ gig of the year. I have decided that it will probably be my last one. 2016 has been my twentieth full year of being a pub rock DJ. I’ve had a lot of interesting and fun times. Everything from verbal and physical abuse to people having the time of their lives. I’ve done wedding receptions, reunions, birthdays, punk nights, metal nights, prog rock nights. I have DJ’d using vinyl, CD and even cassette as well as the now ubiquitous laptop. The gigs have been more sparse of late, due in the main part to my band gig commitments. I have found myself enjoying it less so these days and I’d rather leave it to the many talented folks out there who have more of a passion for it. I will still be doing the odd favour for friends at private functions but I’m not going to be seeking any more pub/club gigs. There’s a lot I want to achieve with writing and recording with my bands and I’d also like to get out to watch more gigs. I have sacrificed a lot over the years and I’d like to alter my priorities a bit. Emma will still be doing it without a doubt and I might jump in for the odd half hour when she needs it. I’d like to thank all the people who have given me a platform to DJ over the years and of course everyone who has helped and supported me.

So, three fairly different events. I hope to see a few folks at each. They’ll be the last ones I do for a little while.

Time and Tide

Anyone who has been following my blog or updates of what I’ve been up to may know that for the last 21 months, I have been working on a full length album with my band Dawn of Elysium. I am very happy to say that it has now been completed to the point of having physical CDs delivered. The album is called “Time and Tide” and contains 10 tracks of original material. I’ll cover the contents and details of the album itself in more depth on the Dawn of Elysium website. This is more a personal reflection of the process of making it.

Despite being in bands for many years, it is the first time I have made an album in the sense of setting out to make an album from scratch and completing it. OK, in the last couple of years there has been the Suicide By Cop album “Zeitgeist” and the Dawnraiser “Blow By Blow” album but these were pretty much compiled from various separate EP and demo recordings. This was the first bona-fide “album”.

It was quite a milestone for me as well because I recorded it myself on my own equipment. Obviously this could not have been done without the fantastic performances by Emma and Charles and the production ear of Martin Hawthorn but essentially this was a DIY project for us.

The idea to record the album was conceived over the Christmas period of 2014, since we’d not recorded anything for 18 months at that point and there was essentially just one song released which reflected what the band had sounded like since the drummer left in February 2013.

I bought the equipment needed in the first half of 2015. There was a learning curve due to not having really worked with the software and hardware to this extent before. After establishing an effective workflow, the recording went down slowly but surely as and when we had the time to do it.

Music and vocals had been recorded by the end of the summer of 2015 and our aim was to get it finished by the autumn. In hindsight this was ambitious as it did not take into account any further learning curves required to develop the mixes to our satisfaction or limited availability of time together. We managed to release the “Trust” EP in October 2015 but there was still a large amount of work to do.

Over the winter of 2015, studio time together became very limited and even non-existent for a time due to unforeseen external circumstances. We carried on as and when we got the opportunity and by the summer, it was virtually complete. It was then a case of listening through mixes, making notes and tweaks when we could and when we were happy with it, Emma put together the artwork and the project was finished.

I am extremely happy with the results. There are always going to be things with any project which you think could have been done better and many many lessons have been learned. I’m sure there will me many more to come but further recording work should be swifter. I must give special mention to my friend and mentor Tim Walker at Voltage Studios. Although I had effectively “flown the nest” for this one, it was the many years of working with him which helped me develop the skills to do this.

Quite literally, blood sweat and tears have gone into the making of “Time and Tide”. The lyrics are very personal to me and I decided to dedicate it to my late mother. I just wish she’d have been around to hear it but then again, had she been then at least two of the songs would not exist.

The official launch date is 1st October, with the launch party at Carpe Noctum, The Library, Leeds with Berlin Black and The Danse Society. However the more keen eyed may have spotted that it is already available via iTunes, Amazon, Google Play, Spotify and a plethora of online stores. Have a listen, I really hope you enjoy it!

Something old, something blue

Now and again, something happens in life where you get pulled into a big nostalgia trip. This has recently happened to me.

Craig Daynes and I occasionally have a beer together, usually along with our respective partners. We all see each other maybe once or twice a month and it’s usually by accident more than design, which is kind of cool as the spontaneity often makes it a better night.

We used to be in a band together some 21 years ago and have been friends ever since. We probably see each other more than any of the other ex-members do to be honest as we are the only ones still permanently resident in Bradford. Craig is a drummer but sadly hasn’t played for many years. Consequently, his partner Sean, with whom he has been for around 15 years has never seen him play on stage.

The band we had was called Dark Embrace and was kind of our first “proper” band (I had done bits before but nothing much). In recent years, Sean has often suggested that we get together for a reunion which is something I have always pretty much refused. It was all a very long time ago and there were certain personal aspects of the situation which I did not (actually still do not) care to revisit. Some parts of the past should stay there.

Anyway, after months of him bringing the subject up, I eventually submitted and said that if everyone else was up for it then I reluctantly would be. Following this, I saw Simon Thorley who played guitar in the band. It was the first time we’d seen each other in years and we had a really nice catch up. Coincidently, a few weeks later, Tony Wildwood the band’s old vocalist turned up in town whom I had not seen for going on for a decade. Craig had a good catch up with him and to a lesser extent I did (it was a gig night for me so was too preoccupied).

Following this, Craig became especially nostalgic, which got us to thinking that maybe the question could be asked to the wider band membership. Although still reluctant, I wanted to proceed with it mainly because I saw how happy this was making Craig and I would very much like to see him play and play alongside him again. The question has been asked and thus far feedback has been fairly minimal but not negative.

Further to this, I went back and watched a very old video recording of us playing in 1995. The sound and video quality leaves a lot to be desired but I listened intently all the way through. There were some songs and musical passages I could not even remember doing but it sent my imagination running and wondering how whese songs would sound now with the benefit of experience and better equipment. Some of it has stood the test of time rather well and it invoked memories of a very exciting, creative time. I was 20 years old and full of youthful passion.

I also happened about this article, which was a fairly in depth review of our demo tape, along with an interview with bassist Daryl Parson. It was not long after I had left the band and in the biography section, it cites musical differences as to the reason for this. In reality, my reasons were not musical or even personal. The music was great and I loved those people like family. We were a pretty close unit at the time. Thinking back, I had no good reason to leave the band and to this day I cite it as being one of the few regrets I’ve had on my musical journey. I was also in another band at the time and I got caught up in the excitement of that. I had convinced myself that I could only manage one band and so foolishly sacrificed Dark Embrace. Reading through the interview amplified that regret and brought many memories and old feelings flooding back. It has been quite a strange experience. They went on to make some (from what I remember to be) phenomenal music with my replacement Rohan Lander, who was such a lovely sweet guy and a brilliant musician. I remember seeing how close they all became and remained after I left and how much I regretted my decision.

Still, it was over 20 years ago and I have been in around 10 bands since, currently happily managing to play in two bands.

So what happens next? Well, the jury’s very much still out. For all I have appeared to enthuse about the reunion idea, I am still fairly anxious about the whole thing. As it stands, Daryl is unable to play for quite some time due to an ongoing injury so this will give us plenty of time to ponder further. Nevertheless, the box has been opened.


Dark Embrace

Profile by Richard Stuart

 
Review of “Tears Of Pain” + Bonus

Dark Embrace play a gothic kind of doom metal… very noticeably English, although that’s not necessarily a negative thing. It’s going to be hard for me to avoid the usual cliches such as “melodic, gothic, well executed, impressively tight,” etc… because they all apply to this band. Of course, the production isn’t overly crisp, since this is just second-generation demo quality… but given a decent studio budget, these tunes could really shine. Daryl tells me in his letter that the band have improved musicially since this demo, which was recorded early last year. I have no doubts that this band could become Peaceville’s new lovelies, or something. Obviously the music isn’t up to Dominion’s standard quite yet, but the potential is definitly there. This easily rivals what I’ve heard from The Blood Divine, though, IMO. Dark Embrace are recording a new demo later this year, “Under The Veil Of Winter” (sounds like the sort of title Thus Defiled would use) so watch out for that.

I’m pleased to report that their keyboard player can actually play. So many bands these days simply incorporate synths into their sound in a last hope for atmosphere, and think that two alternate “oohs” on a Casio will suffice. Thankfully, the synth here is of a higher standard. There are some piano sections which remind me of Theatre Of Tragedy, and a full synth fest (either the outro to the song “Dark Embrace,” or a whole track in itself… things got vague as to which song was which around this point) reminiscent of the mighty ‘Filth. The guitars are also well played, not as Maidenesque as many melodic metal bands are these days, yet still peppered with delightful chord changes and what have you. The drums seemed fine too, although the band now have a new guitarist and new (temporary) drummer.

The vocals are mostly the typical doomy style… thankfully not moaned and groaned so much as “sung whilst spoken” in a David Bowie fashion (pun intended although not very amusing). There are also some death vocals, which don’t half remind me of Anathema’s “Serenades” album. The clean singing could be improved a tad, although the guy’s hitting the right sounds. The spoken style often contributes a rhythmic catchiness which is also a typically British trick of the trade.

“Lost Dreams” is one of my favourites here, if anyone’s interested in standout tracks. It’s melodic and incredibly well executed, with a great piano and drums outro. I think this demo will appeal to people who like My Dying Bride and what have you… although Dark Embrace, despite the songtitles etc, aren’t as slow and depressing as many bands of this ilk.

 
Information
 
Biography

(provided by the band)

Formed during a cold Spring of 1994 in Bradford, West Yorkshire, Dark Embrace are a band unafraid of bringing as many diverse influences as possible into their sound. Each member of the band has their own individual set of influences, ranging from My Dying Bride to Marillion to Dream Theater to Emperor, and everything in between!

Dark Embrace started life as a three-piece consisting of Tony, Craig and Daryl. Guitarist Alec and keyboardist Emma were to join later, the full line-up to be rounded off by Simon, also on guitars. With this line-up, Dark Embrace have had a string of successful gigs, supporting such luminaries as Anathema, Napalm Death, Solstice, Hecate Enthroned and Cradle of Filth.

However, musical differences were to rear their ugly heads and Alec left, to be swiftly replaced by Rohan on guitars. The current line-up remains strong to this day:

Tony - Vocals
Rohan - Guitars
Simon - Guitars
Daryl - Bass
Emma - Keyboards
Craig - Drums

Dark Embrace have already released one demo, the critically acclaimed “Tears of Pain”, a powerful showcase of their unique blend of epic doom metal, gothic overtures, and progressive majesty.

Dark Embrace are currently working on their long awaited second demo, “Under the veil of winter” which they hope to have ready by the Winter Solstice, 1996. Supporting this, they will be playing as many live dates as time allows.

Dark Embrace have high hopes for the future, and hope to bring their original musical style to as many people as possible!

 
Interview

(with Daryl)

Sure, England is overflowing with melodic doom bands with gothic tendencies, but this band truly does have a unique approach to their music, without sounding totally off the wall. Being the inquisitive man I am, I thought an interview with this promising band was long overdue, so here it is…

First of all, why the bandname Dark Embrace?

Well, we didn’t start out with that name. When there were just the three of us; Tony, Craig and myself, we decided on the name ‘Bitter Existence’, half of which we got from a beermat! Later on, after we learned how to play, we chose the name ‘Dark Embrace’ because it sounded cool!

More seriously, we like to think that the concept of a ‘Dark Embrace’ is reflected in our lyrics as well as our outlook on life. We’ve all been in a ‘Dark Embrace’ of sorts; be it on the verge of suicide, in a loveless relationship, in a shit job, being stuck below the poverty line, being betrayed by people you trusted as friends, and many other unhealthy situations. Surrounded by an ever encroaching black hopelessness that seeks to engulf us all as we search for some sense of meaning in our empty, hollow, lives…

Still, you’ve got to laugh, haven’t you?

Do you think your band has anything unique to offer the listener?

Most certainly! Our strength is in our diversity! Each member of the band has their own far-reaching individual musical tastes. These influences become apparent during song-writing, as we’re brave enough to have an open mind and try anything! As long as the music comes naturally, we’ll play it!

We hope that people listening to our music can appreciate the wide range of influences we have, and accept us as being something a little more original than whatever ‘flavour of the week’ the masses are following.

“Suicide,” “Bitter Existence,” “Desireless…” some typical examples of your chin up cheerful songtitles! Are you all manic depressives?? Why are you so attracted to the doom and gloom side of things, like many other English bands?

Have you ever tried living in Bradford? It’s crap!

Although we hail from the Doom capital of England(tm), we’re not really as miserable as our song-titles would lead people to believe! Our lyrics aren’t necessarily a direct reflection of our lives, but are more like ‘stories’ reflecting the darkness within us all. There may be a lot of misery and anguish in our lyrics, but we never let it overwhelm us.

In all reality, we find that the ‘darker’ side of life is a hell of a lot more interesting to write about. We’re aiming for a more atmospheric style these days, which means we’ve rehearsed in candlelight more than once, and we do wear black most of the time, but that doesn’t make us ‘morbid’, does it?

There are six people in the band… is this an advantage? Are there many arguments and creative differences? Do you ever meet each other on a purely social basis?

Yes and No. How’s that for a cryptic response?

Yes, we argue and squabble, but it’s good-natured. We don’t have any fragile little egos to worry about getting bruised. I suppose the main reason we keep ourselves sane is that we don’t take ourselves too seriously as people. We DO take the band and our music seriously however. Together, the band is far greater than any one of us. Each of us is willing to yield for the greater good of the band.

I’ve never had much faith in bands that boast that they’re “The best (insert sub-genre here) metal band ever!” Once you reach that level of overconfident bullshit, the music is bound to suffer. Sure, it’s nice for any of us to be told that we’re good musicians, but we’re not perfect! Confidence doesn’t come from forcing how wonderful you are down people’s throats. And without the ‘fans’ (for want of a better word, we’re not THAT popular yet!) listening to and appreciating our music, we’d be nothing! We’re a very sociable and approachable band, and don’t have any sort of ‘rock star’ attitude stifling our creativity. And we never will!

Remember: If you think the sun shines out of your arse, then the shit’s gonna have to come out of your mouth!

We all get along pretty well together in the ‘real’ world. We’re not the sort of band that can’t stand the sight of each other, rehearse for a few hours, then go our separate ways until the next rehearsal. We always get on well with each other outside the band. We’re like a big family really, scraps and all!

How would you answer certain critics who say that keyboards have no place in metal music?

I put this question to Emma and she gave a simple answer: “Bollocks!”

I think that keyboards certainly have a place in the type of music we play. We’ve got the raw power of our twin guitars which could easily become overwhelming were it not for the finesse of our keyboards. We’re always striving to find a delicate balance.

In a way, we’re lucky as we’ve got a keyboardist that knows what she’s doing! There’s far too many bands out there who add some simplistic synth bits as an afterthought, just because that’s what everyone else is doing. We’re a bit more advanced than that, and write our songs around the combination of all musicians equally. This only means trouble in the short run, as three and four part harmonies are becoming the norm. But, once we’ve all worked out what we’re doing and when, the music sounds a hell of a lot better for it!

The keyboardist is the only female in the band. Does she ever feel outnumbered?? Is everyone’s role in the band equal?

As stated above, we’re all equals. We have to be, otherwise we’d only end up driving each other crazy!

As far as Emma’s reproductive plumbing goes: That’s not a problem. We’re a band of equals, which means everyone gets a fair say, regardless of gender. Certainly, when she started out with us two years ago, she wasn’t as cynical and foulmouthed as the rest of us, but in time she’s fit in quite nicely! (And can normally drink most of us under the table, more’s the pity!)

You’ve supported Cradle Of Filth, Hecate Enthroned, and similar bands. Do they live up to their image in “real life,” or are they basically “normal” people? Are there any bands you would refuse to share a stage with?

Before I answer this question, I’d just like it on the record that ‘Dark Embrace’ are not a band that takes any pleasure whatsoever in slagging off other bands in the scene. When all’s been said and done, we’ve all got to stick together and support each other, because there’s far too many people out there who want to see the whole metal scene wither and die, without us doing most of the backstabbing ourselves…

However, we can certainly say that we will NOT be supporting CoF for a long time to come. Although they are bloody successful in what they do, and have brought extreme concepts to the imagination of the mainstream, their newer fans have a disturbing single-mindedness that makes supporting them an uncomfortable position.

They’re a good band, just not one we’d like to play with again…

Without naming any other bands we’d refuse to share a stage with, it goes without saying that we wouldn’t want to be on the same bill as any band that promotes intolerance, arrogance, or outright hatred.

Conversely, we’d really love to do gigs with bands like Dominion, Amorphis, The Gathering, Orphanage, and Therion. I suppose it makes things a lot easier for us all if we’re playing the same style of music!

What do you think of religion in general, be it Christianity, Satanism, Paganism or Buddhism?

Well, each of us have very different views towards religion. There’s one thing we all agree on though, and that’s to live and let live. We’ve got no time at all for these idiots who have to force their religion down other people’s throats…

They’re one of the reason’s that city life’s so crap these days! If you’re walking down a typical high street and someone approaches you with a smile on their face, you’d think they either want some money off you, or they’re going to tell you how wonderful whichever ‘God of the week’ they believe in is…

You wouldn’t for a minute think that maybe they’re just being friendly, or are interested in you as a person. It’s all false smiles and outright lies. They think they’re getting closer to their god by irritating as many other people as possible…

And regardless of belief, it’s these zealots that do their cause far more harm than good…

Are you interested in ghosts, the paranormal and all that lark?

In a sense we all believe in the supernatural, in one form or nother. There’s a lot ‘out there’ that we don’t understand, or can’t explain rationally. We’ve all got a healthy interest in the unknown, and have even written songs about it!

Personally, I’m convinced that H.P. Lovecraft knew a hell of a lot more about the supernatural than what he left us in his writings!

Ideally, how popular would you like Dark Embrace to become? Are you content with keeping a reasonably low profile in the music world, or would you like to reach a wider audience than just the underground metal scene? (For instance, I’m sure that some David Bowie fans would find something of merit in your music…)

Hey! Enough with the David Bowie already!

Sure, it’ll be nice to be really, really popular. To have hordes of groupies ready and willing to succumb to our every peverse desire. To have our own range of fully-posable action figures and video games. The usual ‘big star’ gumph! But if that means having to change ourselves from the people we are now to something a lot easier to market, then I’m afraid we’ll have lost far more than what we’ll have gained.

What I’m really trying to say is that yes, we want to be popular, we want our music to reach as many people as possible, we want to break through this wall of bullshit that the masses put up against anything slightly ‘metal’. But if that means changing the style of music we play, ‘selling out’ for want of a better phrase, then it’ll be a hollow victory.

Like us for who we are, not for who you want us to be.

And we’re certainly not going to wait around for the next bandwagon to come rolling along. Although if more kids start wearing ‘In the Woods…’ T-shirts instead of ‘Offspring’ ones, then maybe the world will be a better place after all!

Who is the “son” who’s mentioned in the song “Sleep?”

The song ‘Sleep’, and ‘Suicide’ in general, is about a person that has lost the will to live. His inner voice, his ‘conscience’, has become so polluted with angst and self-hatred that he’s trying to convince himself that it’ll all be a lot easier if he turns his anger and frustration inwards and destroys himself.

The ‘Son’ is his inner self, locked away in a cell of his own making. Looking through the ‘bars’, he can see that the world’s still going on out there, regardless of whether or not he makes a contribution or not. So ‘thoughts of death’ cross his mind, and when he tries to comprehend the future, there is no escape from this torment.

He takes a gun, and points it against his head. In his final search for inner peace, he realises that this is the only answer. The only way out. He pulls the trigger…

At that last split second, on the brink of death, he realises just how precious life is, for even in misery, he at least has his humanity! The walls that he’s built around himself finally come down, and he wants so desparately to live. Of course, by this time it’s far too late, and he is killed instantly…

The moral of this story? Manic depressives and loaded firearms don’t mix!

That last bit isn’t reflected in the version of Suicide we’ve got on our demo. We added another section to it after the original was recorded. But what you see above is the full story, make of it what you will!

Did I mention that we’re not really morbid? Honest!

What albums have you been listening to recently? Any you’d like to recommend to the people reading this interview?

There are many albums we’ve all been listening to quite frequently. The hard part is getting everyone to agree on a list! We can safely say that most of us like all these albums:

Dominion – ‘Interface’ Absolutely amazing! And to think we’ve known them for years! (Back when they were still called Blasphemer!)

Therion – ‘Theli’ We’ve heard bits of this one and fell in love straight away! It makes what we do seem just a little bit too bland and simplistic!

Nocturnus – ‘The Key’ One of these days, Nocturnus are going to get the credit they deserve! They were geniuses in their time! Whatever happened to them anyway?

Iron Maiden – ‘Seventh Son’ There’s people out there who say that Maiden are crap because they’re not ‘cool’ or ‘trendy’ anymore. To them we say “Grow up!” This is still their best album by far though! Up the Irons!

A good demonstration of our diversity would be to tell you what each member is listening to at the moment:

Daryl: Monumentum – ‘In Absentia Christi’ A marvellous blend of gothic romanticism and serene atmospherics. With a cool cover of ‘Fade to Grey’ as well! A thousand thanks to the witches at Misanthropy for replacing my scratched copy!

Tony: Amorphis – ‘Elegy’ Mainly because it’s different to most other bands in their genre, and is always interesting to listen to!

Emma: Psychotic Waltz – ‘Bleeding’ Her all-time favourite band of all-time! She’s even got her own PW T-shirt printed up!

Craig: The Prodigy – ‘Music for the Jilted Generation’ OK, so they’re not ‘metal’, but both Craig and Simon love them!

(They’re not ‘music,’ either, in my opinion -Ricks)

Simon: The Gathering – ‘Mandylion’ He borrowed the CD from me a month ago and hasn’t stopped listening to it since!

Rohan: In the Woods… – ‘HEart of the Ages’ A sheer masterpiece of extreme metal and pagan ideology! Take the time to read the sleeve notes, they make a hell of a lot of sense!

What can we expect from your forthcoming demo “Under The Veil Of Winter?” Will this also be available for a blank tape only, or are you going to start charging hard cash for your music?

Well, we didn’t intend to be giving ‘Tears of Pain’ away when we recorded it! The reason it’s free (plus tape + postage, of course!) is that it was recorded with the old line-up, and thus isn’t an accurate representation of the band as we are now. So we were faced with a choice: Either bin the whole thing, and concentrate entirely on the new stuff; or give it away, making a few new friends in the process! We think we’ve made the fairest decision!

What can you look forward to on the new demo? A better production for a start! We intend to record all 5-6 tracks on one day and mix on the next, which means that we won’t be rushing around like the proverbial blue arsed flies trying to get everything done all at once!

We’ll be showcasing most of the new songs we’ve worked on, as they’re proving to be the best we’ve written so far! We’re aiming for a more ‘atmospheric’ release, with each song flowing into each other, rather than chopping and changing between styles. We’ll be trying to get a female vocalist in, to complement Tony’s singing. And if that works out as a permanent feature then we’ll have even more arguments in rehearsals! (But at least it’ll be cheaper for the rest of us!)

That’s it now, mate… do you have any closing comments?

Well, thanks for the interview, we appreciate the interest! Hopefully some of the answers make sense somewhere along the line… We’d just like to make one last comment to the people who are reading this.

We’ve had to endure a lot of bullshit over the years, from other bands saying they’re ‘better’ than us, and people who seem to think it’s cool to talk shit in general. The fact is, we’re not going to stand here and tell you how wonderful we are in return. What we are going to do is make this offer.

If anything we’ve rambled on about above makes any sense, then why not give us a listen? All you’ll need to do is send us a C90 tape and an SAE (IRC if you’re outside the UK), and we’ll tape you ‘Tears of Pain’. Free, Gratis, and for nothing!

If you like what you hear, then keep an eye out for ‘Under the Veil’ – coming soon to a distro list near you! And thanks for the support!

And if you don’t like it? Well, all you’ve really lost is the price of a few stamps!

Either way, you’ll have taken a chance, which is something too few people do these days! Most people prefer to listen to what they’re told to like by the mass media, and never have the opportunity to hear music that they might actually enjoy…

At times we just wish that more people would have the courage to think for themselves for once!

But anyway, I’ll stop trying to change the world and shut up for now. Feel free to email me at dparson@continuum.ragroup.co.uk to find out what we’re up to at the moment.

And if you want a copy of ‘Tears of Pain’, send a tape and an SAE/IRC to: Dark Embrace c/o Daryl 32 Rand Street Bradford West Yorkshire BD7 1RW ENGLAND

If there’s any bands out there who want to trade demos and arrange gigs and stuff, we’ll be glad to oblige! We hope to hear from you!

Man Down

I guess it’s around about the right time to mention a bit more on here about my new band. In my previous post, I mentioned that I set about getting a new band together shortly after I left Echofire. The result is Man Down.

I got chatting to my friend Mikey May who had been itching to set up a rock band and play some original material. His previous efforts didn’t quite get to where he wanted them to be and whilst he enjoys playing acoustic shows, both solo and as part of his duo act May Moon, the emphasis was always more on playing covers.

We then got in touch with Lyndon Birchall, whom I had previously played with in Wild Trash and later Reeved. Mikey had also had some sessions with him. We both knew he had been looking for a band for quite some time and fortunately, he jumped at the chance and took the bass position.

Initially, we got together with Warren Garner. We got on great with him and he is a fantastic drummer but unfortunately his work commitments would not allow him to reliably make the rehearsals and so he had to bow out. We all sincerely hope he manages to hook up with a band which fits in better with his schedule as he has an amazing talent and is a great guy. We wish him all the very best.

Shortly after Warren went, Rick Bulmer took up the drum stool and immediately brought a new dimension to the sound. Rick is very versatile, technically proficient and plays with a great feel. He also plays for local reggae/ska band Trenchtown and whilst he enjoys that, rock is his main passion. He settled in very quickly and it’s great to have him onboard.

We have a handful of songs already and there are loads of ideas floating about. Our first gig is booked at The Black Swan in Bradford. It’s on 10th December and we’re on with our good buddies Black Falcon. We’re hoping to hit the studio over the autumn and have our first EP ready for the gig then hopefully get out there and build on it in the new year.

The music itself is kind of contemporary rock with an old school edge. Style-wise it reminds us very much of what we did in Reeved. I can see it being a lot of fun. Really looking forward to getting it properly off the ground. There’s so much positivity and enthusiasm between everyone, it has been quite a tonic for me.

2016 – So far, so mixed …

It has been a little while since I last blogged. It’s just over halfway through the year, so I guess it’s as good a time as any to reflect on 2016 so far.

On the whole, it has been a good year if rather stressful at times. January started off with a tirade of abuse from a bunch of people. It wasn’t a great time and I won’t go into their identities or nature of it. Suffice to say that it has been dealt with appropriately and they no longer have any means of contacting me. Also as a consequence of their actions, I will never speak to any of them ever again for any reason.

Dawn of Elysium has been going well for us. In January, we got to play at Carpe Noctum with seminal 80’s goth band The Danse Society and our friends Hands of Industry, which kick-started us into the year quite nicely. We resolved to improve on 2015’s live schedule and by April, we had already done that. We’ve been playing fairly regularly in West Yorkshire and are in discussions regarding gigs further afield later in the year.

Recordings are filtering through with our release of the “Trust” EP going online in February and the release of “This Rising Sun” in June, both of which are now available on iTunes and various other online outlets. Work on the album has continued piecemeal as and when we can get time with Martin. However, just about all of the mixing work is now done, with mainly editing and mastering to go. We are aiming for a late summer release. Demo work for the follow-up release has been ongoing with 3 tracks nearing completion. We’re aiming to release an EP to follow the album but this is some time off yet. Everything has been ticking over nicely and we’re very pleased with progress. It has been great to be able to be in a position to record the songs as we’ve been writing them.

In February, I put an event on at the 1in12. Called “Someone Else’s Problem”, it was in aid of PAFRAS. It was a stressful but fun evening and we managed to raise £225 for the charity. As a rule, I generally don’t run events anymore but it was for a very worthy cause. It was a great line-up and a bloody good night. I toyed with the idea of organising a follow-up event but thus far I have had neither the time or the energy.

In April, Bradford’s music scene lost a dear friend and colleague. Harry “Scouse” Roberts passed away after suffering a heart attack during a shopping trip in town. He was a much loved character and sound engineer with whom I had worked at a number of venues. Of course there was an all day event organised in remembrance, affectionately called “Scousefest” and following his funeral, we gave him a great send-off. He will be missed by many of us.

In May, I took the difficult decision of leaving Echofire. Echofire had been in existence for 15 months. It was actually a follow-on project from Suicide By Cop, which dated back a further 6 years and so three of us had been together for quite some time. A lot of water had flowed under its bridge and we had made some great music in all that time but progress had been frustratingly slow for too long. It was really affecting my state of mind and to stick around any longer would not have been fair on anybody.

Thankfully, my leaving gave rise to much positivity for everybody.

The remaining members of Echofire regrouped and are enjoying a long overdue period of renewed enthusiasm with a modified line-up. I am so happy for them as it had been difficult for all of us. They remain some of my closest friends and I wish them all the best. It took some time but I think this was the fresh start the band really needed. I am very much looking forward to hearing what they come up with. We recorded an EP in the spring of 2015, which I had spent quite some time playing around with. There’s still a bit of recording to do vocal-wise but I’d like to finish it off at some point just for posterity. It’s different from Suicide By Cop and will more than likely be different from what Echofire is to become but it’s a snapshot in time of where we were at.

Shortly following my departure from Echofire, I set about getting something new together. The as yet unnamed band started off really well, very quickly getting some songs together. We’re currently going through the initial teething stage which comes with every brand new band as we get our line-up established. I am sure we’ll get there. It has really been a breath of fresh air for me and it’s great to be starting afresh with new people and new ideas. There is much work to be done but we are cracking on. Our initial goal is to take it live by the end of the year and have something recorded.

My DJ nights at The Black Swan have continued and am happy to say are very well received. I have been playing on the last Saturday of each month as part of the Trap Door pre-party (unless I have a gig). Trap Door is a monthly rock club which takes place at Bradford University and is very popular. I have been asked if I am available to do more nights. Unfortunately as yet I have not been able to do it but no doubt I will as time goes by.

So life is generally as busy as ever. Mentally, I am up and down. The Echofire split is still processing itself in my mind. I know it was the right thing to do but as with any parting of the ways, things are still a bit weird for me especially with them now moving on and looking for other band members. It is undoubtedly what both parties respectively needed to do and the pleasure I am getting from working with my new band is testament to that. Bands are odd things and the relationships you have with your band-mates run deep. Adjusting to changes, whilst keeping friendship and band stuff separate can be tricky. I always tend to throw myself emotionally head first into musical projects and end up feeling a bit fragile when it comes to an end. I am optimistic but a bit at sixes and sevens with it all.

Still, there’s lots to look forward to. I am loving Dawn of Elysium, the gigs we are playing and the recordings we are on with. My new band has some real potential and I’m looking forward to all that it brings. There are always other recording projects I want to get involved in too.

RIP Harry “Scouse” Roberts

Today, we say goodbye to our dear friend Harry Roberts, more commonly known in Bradford as “Scouse”. He passed away on 29th April after suffering a heart attack during a shopping trip. The funeral service will be at Scholemoor Crematorium at 2.40pm today (Wednesday 18th May, 2016) followed by a gathering at his favourite pub The Black Swan, Thornton Road, Bradford. There will also be a memorial all day event featuring a collection of local bands and DJs. This will be held at The Beehive pub, Westgate on Saturday 4th June starting at 2pm.


Harold George Roberts (Scouse) was a well known and much loved sound engineer, spending many of his later years working in the venues of Bradford. He was a unique character with a wicked and mischievous sense of humour, which got him into trouble from time to time but as anyone who knew him will testify, his heart was always in the right place.

His time in Bradford stretches back about 20 years when at that point he had retired from the sound engineering business and was working as a sheet metal worker. He first came out of retirement at The Peel pub in the early to mid 2000’s, where he started off doing bits of karaoke. When The Peel closed, he started up at The Black Swan, where he laid his heart. He was to continue with live sound at that venue on and off until very recently.

He moved from the Black Swan to the Zuu bar in 2010 where he worked for another year or so. After the Zuu closed, he decamped back to the Swan again for a while until in the summer of 2013, he started doing bits at the Love Apple and moved into Vampire as resident sound engineer in the September. The following year, he moved along with the Vampire team to the Tavern in the Town on Barry Street where he worked for a while. He later moved on to Trash on Sackville Street and continued with bits of work at the jam sessions at The Black Swan. He mixed hundreds of bands in those few years alone and he was a very well known face in the city. However, what many people don’t realise is his rich and varied history with sound engineering.

When Scouse passed away, he was 70 years old and was coming up to celebrating 50 years service in the entertainment industry as a sound engineer. He started off in a band in Liverpool in the early 60’s in which he played the drums. He didn’t feel as though his talent laid in this role and decided that being a roadie was where his heart was. He was one of the first people in Liverpool to own a mixing desk. In the 60’s they were all valve and cumbersome with only 4 channels but he could see the value in using one for a rock band. Marshall were hesitant to let him buy it at first as they intended the product to be for the BBC and such like but after his persistent nagging with the various sales executives, they agreed to sell him one. In the late 60’s and early 70’s, he worked in London and Liverpool, doing sound for many up and coming bands often going on tour with them.

He also worked as a junior sound engineer in the early 70’s at some big gigs in Hyde Park, London. They were known as the Hyde Park Free Concerts and the bill contained such heavyweights as King Crimson, Soft Machine and The Rolling Stones.

He went on tour with Kid Creole and the Coconuts, Kool and the Gang, The Real Thing and Supercharge. He loved mixing brass and vocal harmonies more than anything and his favourite band was the Eagles.

Of course we only knew him in recent years and the facts above were compiled from various stories and anecdotes. We believe in all those years, he must have worked with many well known acts and had probably forgotten more than most people experience in a life time. He was never one to brag or name drop and would only talk about his time on the road when asked and (usually) under the influence.

He was a very passionate man who lived and breathed music. He paid for all of his own equipment from his pension and built all of his own speaker cabs from scratch. He was also a master carpenter and watching him at work was a joy.

For all in his latter days, his ears sometimes failed him (he left many a ringing ear after some of his gigs), his heart never did and he particularly loved watching new upcoming artists. He also passed on some of his knowledge to young budding sound engineers and was always happy to help and teach anyone who wanted to listen.

Rest well old friend, we will miss you.

Alec Marlow & Michael Dunn.

Farewell Echofire

Last Thursday, I took the very difficult decision of leaving my band Echofire. Echofire is the follow-on project from Suicide By Cop and so line-up changes aside, I had been a part of that unit of people for over 7 years. In truth, I had not been happy for some time. The progress was in fits and starts and although I very much enjoyed the music, there was hardly ever any momentum. In the last three years, the band played just 5 gigs and managed to write 5 complete songs. We had overcome a considerable number of hurdles but in the end, I just ended up feeling more and more despondent. After a recent particularly trying phase, something inside me simply said “Enough”. It wasn’t fair on anybody and had I stuck around, I fear that resentment would have set in. Being part of a band is sometimes a struggle but ultimately it is something which is to be enjoyed and if that stops happening, then it is time to take a look at the situation. The band as it stood simply wasn’t working for me and in reality had not been for a while. It was a heartbreaking decision. As anyone who is in a band will testify, the bond you have with the people with which you play runs deep and is very much like being in a relationship in many ways. In the few days which have elapsed since, I have grown more sure that I have done the right thing for everyone involved.

I would like to say to my former bandmates that you guys are some of the best friends I have ever had. As far as I am concerned that will never change and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I would like to wish you the very best of luck with whatever you continue to do and I am sure I will end up working with many of you in future projects.

As for me, well I still have Dawn of Elysium of course and I will probably be looking at starting another band in the near future. With whom and what style remains to be seen.

Zero tolerance for abuse

I have not had a great time of it recently, particularly today. The details of which I shall not go into. Suffice to say that I have been the recipient of various communications which have been abusive. I am adopting a zero tolerance approach to this and any number or profile which sends me any kind of abuse will be blocked with the messages permanently deleted and it does not matter who it is.

I am always open to conversation and adult constructive criticism. After all, none of us are perfect. However personal character assassinations are unacceptable. I suffered with bullies and abusive relationships in my young days and I refuse to be subjected to this again. Up with this I will not put!

2015 – All going in the right direction

2015 has been on the whole a positive year all round. There have been low points as there are most years but generally the year has been very productive. I have covered a lot of this in previous blog posts but here is my annual review.

I have really settled in to the job which I started in December 2014. It has really highlighted that I am capable of more than I gave myself credit for and also how much better off I am when not surrounded by negativity. The support and encouragement shown to me by my new colleagues has done wonders for my self-confidence. I am very happy and I really hope I can stay at this place for a long while.

This is the first full year for ages where I have not been involved in any venue/gig organisation. I am working on a gig in February at the 1-in-12 club (more news on that to follow) but nothing in 2015 and I have not missed it I have to say. I have done a number of nights DJing at The Black Swan throughout the course of the year. The pub is under new management now so whether or not these continue next year remains to be seen. I’m happy to get to do the odd night, it keeps my hand in. It will be coming up to 20 years since I started as a DJ.

Music-wise it has been a very positive but irritatingly not-quite-there-yet year.

Suicide By Cop was retired at the end of 2014 and we entered the rehearsal room in January with essentially a blank slate. We expanded our numbers and became a 5-piece and decided on the name Echofire. There were 4 songs which were carried through to the new project. We added a 5th and set about recording them with a view to releasing a 5-track EP. This was started at Voltage Studios. The first part of the year seemed to be very encouraging but around about spring time we lost the momentum. The recording project was shelved in order to concentrate on getting a set together for a June gig. This would have to involve covers in order to make the numbers up. For many bands this is fairly straight-forward but not so for us as we all have different tastes and so consequently it ended up with all of us suggesting songs which not all of us particularly wanted to do. We managed to salvage a couple and resorted to playing another old SBC song. The one gig we managed to play in reality came across as “SBC with a new guitarist playing one new song and a couple of covers”. Although the gig was OK despite Paul’s amp dying half way through, I came away feeling rather despondent and disappointed with the whole thing. It should have been so much more and so much better. Echofire was clearly not ready yet. After that we just kind of treaded water for a while and external Summer commitments rendered us out of action for a couple of months. When autumn arrived we started on some new music and I started doing some more work on the recordings. This injected a bit more positivity into it for me and although I have only to date mixed one of the songs, it has been a very positive and exciting learning curve. We were to be playing another gig in the December but this had to be cancelled due to health problems. In reality we were not really any further forward than we were for the previous gig and it came as some relief when we were no longer playing. When I look back on the year, overall I am very happy with what we have done so far but would’ve liked more of it. Next year we have decided to not think about anything other than writing new material and hopefully we can get an album and an entirely brand new set together. I will finish producing the EP and get that out of the way too.

Dawn of Elysium began the year with plans to record an album and in the main, this is what we have done. All of the recording work has been completed and production work has been progressed fairly well. There is still a fair bit to do. Martin Hawthorn is in the chair for production but autumn commitments for him have rendered studio time very thin on the ground. We have a little time over the Christmas period and we’re hoping to get it finished in the early part of the new year. Both Martin and I have got other studio projects which we want to embark on. We released an EP, which consisted of “The Last Time” – a song from the album, the recording of “Smoke and Mirrors” we did in 2013, a remix of the newly recorded version of the same song and a cover of Status Quo’s “Pictures of Matchstick Men”, which has been very well received as a live number. There are 10 tracks in progress for the album. Overall I think Dawn of Elysium is sounding much more professional, due in part to the time spent on pre-production and production of the album as well as regular rehearsal. We haven’t played very many gigs this year, just 5 in all but we hope to improve on this in 2016 and also to get a bit further afield.

In the spring time, I contributed to a charity single. It was a cover of the Gerry and the Pacemakers song “You’ll Never Walk Alone”, which featured a number of celebrities. It was released in aid of Bradford Burns Unit in commemoration of the 30th anniversary of the Bradford City fire. It was recorded and produced by Tim Walker at Voltage Studios. I played the majority of the guitar work on the single. We were both totally unsure of how it would turn out at first but after a short while, we got into the swing of it and I think I managed to put my own stamp on it. It was very well received and I was proud to be part of such a project.

Since the beginning of the year I have expanded my collection of recording studio equipment and am now fairly self-sufficient. I have learned much and am now producing results which I am very happy with. I have a few tentative plans for future recording projects but there is still a lot to complete before I can think about them. So, 2015 has had lots going on but to my eyes not much in the way of complete results. Hopefully 2016 will bear more fruit.

Missing inaction

Blimey, it has been 3 months since I last blogged anything. Time is flying past at an increasingly exponential rate.

In the later summer months, there was a lot of activity with finishing the recording and doing a lot of mixing work on the elusive Dawn of Elysium album. The intention was to release it at the gig we had at Carpe Noctum on 3rd October. However, despite pushing hard to get it done, it became apparent that this would not be ready in time and so we opted to release an EP instead.

Since that time, nothing has really happened as Martin, the producer has had various personal commitments to attend to. It will be ready when it is ready I guess. We all want to get it finished but at the moment, it’s not possible. We have achieved a lot so far and it’s sounding mega but circumstances are not on our side at the moment. Consequently, the album project has been semi put-on-ice for the time being.

In the DOE rehearsal room, we have been attempting to write new material but nothing is very developed yet.

Echofire recorded 5 tracks for a planned EP in the spring time and it was left untouched and unmixed for months. There is some vocal work left to do but the music is all there. We recorded it all at Voltage studios and kept meaning to go back in and finish it. I recently opted to take the source files and attempt the production myself. I have done the majority of the work on one song so far and I’m pretty pleased with the results. I have learned a lot and there’s a ton of work yet to do but at least it’s a bit further on than it was.

In the Echofire rehearsal room, it has been frustrating at times for various reasons. However, progress is being slowly but surely made. Maybe I have expected too much from it at times I don’t know. The band will only ever tick on at the pace at which it does and when it sounds good, it sounds great. This is what keeps my interest.

I think being part of two bands, both of which nominally rehearse every single week, have both been involved with recordings (to varying degrees) and gigs (to a lesser degree this last year) has taken its toll of late, especially given the frustrations outlined above. The last few weeks have been very low on any musical activity and it has been a welcome break. There are gigs coming up for both bands next month, with a further one for DOE on 19th December so we do need to crack on and prepare for those but as far as I am concerned any major studio activity is now on ice until the new year.

All of this has been exacerbated by a bout of seasonal adjustment, which often affects me at this time of year and doesn’t do much for motivation.

At the end of 2014 and the beginning of this year, I commented that I had not been involved in any new recorded material for quite some time. There now exists 17 recorded songs which are at various stages of completion, 4 of which have been released and none of which had been started until January. Although it would have been nice to have it all finished before the end of the year, I can still consider it to be some achievement. I had hoped to be onto new recording projects by now but as a friend reminded me recently, there’s no rush.

In other news, I have recently got myself a Roland GR55. The GR55 is a guitar synthesizer which also incorporates all of the various COSM instrument and amp modelling which Roland/Boss have included in their products over the last 15 years or so. I bought myself a Boss GT5 in the late 90’s and have always used the same series of multi-FX ever since, continuing with the GT6 when the GT5 came to an untimely end at a gig and more recently the GT8. So far, I have spent a few hours playing with the preset patches and started constructing one of my own. I think it will be a while before I can incorporate it into my live set-up properly. Annoyingly, it won’t quite cover everything I currently do with the GT8 as a multi-FX unit but it opens the door to a world of new synth and model sounds. It will take some thinking about but I plan to have lots of fun in the process!

Friendship

Occasionally I write a blog which is of a very personal and reflective nature. I guess the main purpose is to exorcise rather than to fish for support or advice. Any messages are always welcome but not strictly necessary. This is one such blog and if it does not interest you, then you have no need to read on.

One such blog I wrote over a year ago entitled “Paradigm Shift“, was a commentary of a significant and somewhat difficult change I was experiencing in my life. It addressed the subject of friendships and trust and my own resulting anxieties. In this sense I am talking about friendship in real terms, which is not to be confused with any social network terminology. It was a fairly intense period and although I dealt with the main crux of it at the time, the effects still echo on in my mind from time to time.

You see for me, a friendship is a life time thing. Something which is always there, no matter what life may throw at us and when a friendship is suddenly terminated by the other party without discussion, it cuts me deep. I don’t mind being told I have done something wrong and even if I am unable to rectify things, the opportunity to at least discuss it and if necessary apologise is surely not too much to ask?

Anyway, this happened to me last year on not only one but three occasions. All were people who had referred to me in such terms as “best friend” and “brother” and all were people with whom I believe I had forged close bonds with. It seems I was wrong on all three occasions. In the absence of any explanation or reason, I performed a number of postmortems on these friendships, examining my own behaviour and that of the other parties and I sought advice from mutual friends who were equally as clueless. Now, I’m not so arrogant as to claim I was entirely without fault but I have to question whether these people were ever really what can be considered as friends in the first place, especially since the currency which certainly two of them dealt in was guilt. The connections to me were always very real though and reflecting on them truly saddens me, particularly never having had proper closure. So to those people I would say that if your intention was to hurt, then mission accomplished. Let’s move on.

I have always been sensitive to a fault and I realise I can jump to conclusions about people in my own mind, occasionally being happily proven wrong. Trust has been a difficult commodity to find in the time which has since elapsed and it really hasn’t taken much for me to spiral into a whirlwind of self-doubt. I’m getting better in my own time and in my own way and a by product of this has been realising who actually is there for me. I’m happy to say that I am making new friends all the time and I am appreciating more those who have been there for a while and I have been perhaps too wrapped up in myself to notice. I am also making efforts to rekindle old friendships which although have been subjected to the passage of time, have never gone away for me.

I realised a long time ago that it is not possible to be friends with everyone. Personality clashes exist between people and there are some nasty pieces of work out there. Life is too short for me to concern myself with these people and hate is far too consuming.

I do wear my heart on my sleeve and if you are a friend of mine or I have reached out to you in any way, be it emotionally or even just socially, in real life or online, then I can assure you that I am genuine and if I have appeared off with you or unapproachable, then I apologise, I really don’t mean to. It probably just means that I am anxious about the way you feel about me, which is entirely my hangup.

Life can be a cruel place sometimes and it continues to affect us in many ways. What we can do is follow the advice of Bill and Ted.

“Be excellent to each other”

Peace.

My life in music: Part 1 (1980-1991)

Music has always been a big part of my life since I can ever remember. Over the years I have held an appreciation for many styles and sub-genres. I guess people may associate me with various flavours of rock and alternative music, particularly metal, punk and goth. However, upon reflecting back on the musical landscape which shaped me, there are some influences which may come as a surprise to some. Since I recently reached a certain milestone in my life, I thought it might be fun to document which music, bands, places and people have influenced me throughout my life.

This first period covers from when I can first ever remember music to any degree up until the first gig I attended.

1980-1991
My dad and uncles were a huge influence on me when I was a kid, exposing me to music from a very early age.

Stevie Wonder - Hotter Than July

Stevie Wonder’s Hotter Than July album (1980)

Long before my appreciation of noisy guitar based music, the very first artist I ever remember being exposed to in a big way was Stevie Wonder. I was born in the mid-seventies so I was too young to remember Stevie’s heyday (which was pretty much all of the seventies). However, the first album I remember hearing was 1980’s “Hotter Than July”, which contained the famous hits “Master Blaster (Jammin’)” and “Happy Birthday”. One of my favourite Stevie songs is also on this record, the ballad “Lately”, which I have been known to destroy on a karaoke from time to time!

Anyway, my parents bought me a cassette recorder at an early age and my dad copied a few of his LPs for me. Three very prominent Stevie records from this time for me were “Innervisions”, “Music of my Mind” and “Songs in the Key of Life”. Stevie’s music became a big part of my life and I went on to explore the rest of his catalogue, from the sublime albums “Talking Book” and “Fulfillingness First Finale” to the experimental “Secret Life of Plants”. There was nobody quite like him. Listening to Stevie Wonder taught me about emotion and different feelings in music more than any other artist at the time.

Adam and the Ants Prince Charming album (1981)

Adam and the Ants Prince Charming album (1981)

We always had the radio on at home in the late seventies / early eighties, which was a pretty good thing at the time. The first band I remember getting excited about was Adam and the Ants. I used to sing along to the singles on the radio, so much so that my parents bought me the Prince Charming album on LP (which I still have to this day). I remember the first time I listened to the album at my grandma’s house and being confused about there being other songs on the album other than the ones which I had heard on the radio. I was only 5 years old and the concept of album tracks had not yet reached my understanding. The LP was duly transferred to cassette as I was a bit young to be handling vinyl. My dad was very particular about this and taught me to have great respect for it. Later in my life, I revisited Adam Ant and collected more of his music but Prince Charming will always be special to me. Aside from the obvious single tracks, the song “Five Guns West” remains embedded in my memory from this time.

Frankie Goes To Hollywood's Welcome To The Pleasure Dome album (1984)

Frankie Goes To Hollywood’s Welcome To The Pleasure Dome album (1984)

Many people look back at the pop music of the eighties with a mixture of amusement and ridicule. A band I remember enjoying at the time was Wham! OK, it was pop music of its time, it was cheesy and I was only a kid listening to the radio. I do still have a soft spot for Wham!. However, I do rate George Michael as a singer and songwriter and the “Listen Without Prejudice” album he later released was very good indeed (this album contained a brilliant version of Stevie Wonder’s “They Won’t Go When I Go”. I fondly remember a lot of the pop music of the time. I collected the “Hits” compilation tapes (I had volumes 1-5) and like many other kids, used to wait for the charts on the radio on Sunday evening so I could tape songs from the top 40. One band which I particularly liked was Frankie Goes to Hollywood. My dad bought the 12-inch single of “Two Tribes” and I listened to this a lot. I guess it was this record which first introduced me to the idea of extended remixes, which was very much an eighties thing. I later got the “Welcome to the Pleasure Dome” album. Trevor Horn’s production was so dynamic and the songs were quality.

Genesis Trespass album (1970)

Genesis Trespass album (1970)

Between the ages of 9 and about 12, my musical taste was mostly inspired by my dad, which was often inspired by his friend and colleague Paul. Each week we used to go to the library, choose a number of CDs and discover them together or he used to borrow music from Paul. Socially, I was a bit of a loner and music was my main companion I guess. Paul was a massive influence in my life and later introduced me to lots of weird and wonderful music. One album in particular which changed my life was “Trespass” by Genesis. There is something special about this album; it’s a unique mixture of light and shade, evoking pastoral scenery with sinister undertones. Peter Gabriel’s voice is sublime and the guitar work of Anthony Philips, coupled with Tony Banks’ keys and Mike Rutherford’s multi-instrumental talents was mesmerising. This was an important album to me. To date, it remains my favourite work by any artist and started my love affair with Genesis and exploration into the world of progressive rock.

Dire Straits Money For Nothing compilation album (1988)

Dire Straits Money For Nothing compilation album (1988)

About this time (slightly earlier in fact), I started listening to the music of Dire Straits and Mark Knopfler. I was obsessed and duly collected all of the albums which for a time were the only things I listened to on constant rotation. My obsession began with the compilation album “Money For Nothing” and went from there. To this day, I couldn’t give you a favourite particularly as I love all of them. However, one album which evokes memories of childhood summers is “Making Movies” and “Tunnel of Love” in particular reminds me of Peel Park fairground and the mixture of excitement and confusion associated with early adolescence.

Dire Straits Making Movies album (1980)

Dire Straits Making Movies album (1980)

I was a socially awkward kid and overwhelmingly shy. However, I did have some friends, the most prolific of whom at the time was my lifelong friend Richard Stubbs. Richard and I still remain in contact to this day. We continued our trips to the library and our discovery of music, soaking up many sounds.

Discovery records (formerly the Wax Museum), Westgate, Bradford

Discovery records (formerly the Wax Museum), Westgate, Bradford

About this time, we discovered the various record shops in Bradford city centre. Aside from HMV, there was Our Price, EGS and the two independent ones Rocks Off and The Wax Museum. The Wax Museum on Westgate was the place where I spent most of my Saturday mornings and afternoons. It was where most of my pocket money went and became the source of most of my music collection over the years. The shop later expanded and the CD section of it downstairs became Discovery.

At the height of its popularity, the whole business took up three floors of the building. At the time of writing, Discovery is still there, although I don’t get there so much these days.

I was about 13 or 14 at this point and I remember one evening after we had finished Richard’s paper round, we were sat in his bedroom playing records. He had an old nylon-string acoustic guitar which he never really used. I remember picking this up and for the very first time attempting to play a tune. I played along with the bassline to “Satisfaction” by The Rolling Stones, at first attempting it left handed (with the instrument strung right handed). I later bought the instrument from Richard and set about learning to play. My dad showed me my first chords (after correcting me on the proper way to hold the instrument) and my auntie’s boyfriend at the time was a classical guitarist. He taught me how to fingerpick. Aside from this, I had no formal lessons. I also had a synthesiser at home which my parents had bought for me (Casio CZ1000) and in parallel with learning guitar, I played keys a bit. Around this time I was spending more and more time with my friend Paul Gooding and we started making what could loosely be described as music together, upsetting neighbours and making a load of row.

Casio CZ1000. The first instrument I ever owned

Casio CZ1000. The first instrument I ever owned

Trashcan Sinatras Cake album (1990) is one which invokes a few memories of being an awkward teenager.

Trashcan Sinatras Cake album (1990) is one which invokes a few memories of being an awkward teenager

I guess at the time, some of the music I was listening to was old-fashioned for a kid of my age but some of it was also quite challenging. A lot of my friends were getting into hard rock and heavy metal, which was really popular at the time. I actually didn’t really take to it at first, initially continuing with my appreciation of prog rock and the post-punk, alternative and indie sounds of the late eighties and early nineties.

The Wedding Present Seamonsters album (1991) - this tour was the first ever gig I went to. - Leeds Met. May 1991

The Wedding Present Seamonsters album (1991) – this tour was the first ever gig I went to. – Leeds Met. May 1991

My dad’s friend Paul introduced me to a myriad of great sounds, lots from around the time (The Wedding Present, Sonic Youth, Dinosaur Jr. The Sundays, The Trashcan Sinatras, The Dustdevils) and some more vintage (Peter Hammill, Anthony Phillips). I went to my first gig when I was 15 in May 1991, which was The Wedding Present. They were touring their “Seamonsters” album with a band called Buffalo Tom supporting. The gig was at Leeds Met and I remember my ears ringing so loudly on the way home. I’m not sure if it was because it was my first ever live gig or what but I remember it to be the loudest I have attended.

Springing into Spring

With March well underway, we are beginning to see the bad weather subside ever so slightly and Spring is trying to break through.

February for me was a bit of a damp squib in some respects. On the positive side, Echofire (the new post-Suicide By Cop project) set off to a good start. It has been great working with Paul Gooding again and the band really feels like something new. We’re plugging away in the background.

Dawn of Elysium began the month with recording sessions for the album. However, we broke off for a gig at Leeds University for a new night called “Cyanide”. The gig itself wasn’t our greatest performance. For a start it was on a Monday night, which wasn’t ideal although it surprised me how many people attended. We were on with Bad Pollyanna who we’ve played with before and new (certainly to us) band Hands of Industry who I thought were fantastic. The soundman did a great job of sorting our sound out in what amounted to not much more than a line check due to limited time. It’s always a bum deal soundwise being the middle band on a 3 band bill and the team were very professional in getting us sorted as quickly as possible.

During the proceedings, I trapped a nerve in my neck. It happened just after our first song and put me off during the rest of the set, starting as a tension headache then creeping into the neck a day or so later. It took me out of action for a fair bit of February and the pain has only just subsided in the last week or so.

Anyway, as March arrived, we got back on track with the DOE recording and it’s making slow but steady progress. We’re breaking off for a gig on the 28th at the Black Swan with Hands of Industry but aside from that there is nothing in the calender until November. Nominally, we’d like to keep it that way until the album is finished but we’re always up for the right live opportunities in the meantime.

April is looking good with recording sessions for Echofire scheduled. We’re putting together a 5 track EP. I am particularly looking forward to this, as my involvement in any recorded output has been dry for far too long and it also provides the band with the relaunch it has so desperately needed.

We’re getting closer to April’s Whitby Goth Weekend which we bought our tickets for some time ago. I really enjoyed it last year, which was the first time I had attended. I’m looking forward to it, if nothing else than to get away for a few days. We’re doing Scarborough on the Friday night (a place I always love going back to), then Whitby on the Saturday and Sunday.

In June I have a major milestone birthday coming up, which my girlfriend and daughter have both been ribbing me about. :/ There is a “surprise” party planned, which despite my knowledge of date and venue I have no idea about what is being been planned. I’m sure I’ll thoroughly enjoy it.

Vienna plans are at the “pencilled in” stage with nothing booked as yet. We’re hoping for a week in mid to late summer.

One thing I am particularly excited about was getting tickets to see David Gilmour at the Royal Albert Hall in September. Pink Floyd have been one of my favourite bands for many years and David in particular has been a big inspiration to me. That is in September and we’ll be making a weekend of it down in London. I haven’t been to the big smoke many times in my life and only really went as a tourist once in 1996. I can already feel my Yorkshire gland twitching at the price of a pint. Perhaps if we know anyone London-side, they might furnish us with tips on where is good?

Now if this Spring weather could just try a little harder …..

2015 off to a great start

Just after halfway through January and already some small yet significant progress has been made.

Under the guidance of good friend Martin Hawthorn, the Dawn of Elysium album has commenced pre-production and improvements have been made across the board. Still lots to do but it is a nice feeling to have made a start.

The as yet un-re-named post-Suicide By Cop project has commenced in earnest and I am delighted to have my oldest musical companion and best friend Paul Gooding joining us on guitar as we took the decision to expand our numbers. Paul and I started playing guitar together in the late 80’s when we were young teenagers and it is a partnership which has continued on and off over the last 26 years. I am really happy to be rekindling it. Rehearsals as a 5-piece are set to commence this coming week. We are hoping to hit the studio pretty soon and have our first EP out in the first half of the year. I think the line-up change will be refreshing and will help make it feel like a new band. Now, we just need a name …

I have been spending some time tweaking and amending a lot of the text on this website, both in the bands section and the DJ/Events page. Feel free to have a peruse and if you have any comments or anything you would like to add/amend then please get in touch.